人生畢業禮(24)_沒有任何一人能夠為此幻象負責 (中)

Raj:  No, Paul.  You give permission to Know by desiring to Know.  And the manner in which you find it easiest to Know something is to ask a question.

Paul:  I guess the simplest question would be, can you speak to the issue of accountability?

Raj:  With pleasure.

瑞吉：不是這樣的，保羅。你只要渴求真知，就是讓路給真知進來。你想要真正了解一件事的話，對你而言，最簡單的方就是提問題。

保羅：那麼，最簡單的問法大概就是，想請你談談「為自己負責」這個觀念。

瑞吉：樂意之至。

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The only things one can be accountable for are his own creations.  And the only one someone can be accountable to, is someone other than himself, because left to oneself one simply experiences the fullness of Life as It unfolds Itself—one experiences the fullness of his Being as It unfolds Itself.  Therefore, Paul, accountability is an ego dynamic brought into play by the belief that one is a personal, private creator, separate from the Movement of Creation, Itself, which only God is responsible for.

人只能為自己所造的事物負責。人能「對」誰負責呢？自然是對「他人」負責，而不是為自己。因為當外邊沒有人，只有自己存在時，永恆生命就會展現，那時人會感受到本體生命在他內展現出它的圓滿狀態。因此，保羅，所謂的「為自己負責」其實是小我的內在機制所編出的戲碼，它要鞏固的信念正是：我們是個別獨立的創造者，足以與真神的「造化之工」分庭抗禮。

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Now, it is essential to understand that it takes two to play the game of Accountability.  In the Allegory in the third chapter of Genesis, Eve tasted the apple and found it good to be eaten.  There was not immediately shame or guilt.  It was when she offered it to Adam and he ate of it that they found themselves, together, experiencing shame.  In other words, Eve, in her relationship with the Father, was not judged of the Father.  This is an important point.  There were not two present, acting in concert in disobedience to the Father.  There was just the Father and Eve.  There was the Father and his Self-expression.

好，你了解了吧，「為自己負責」這種遊戲要有兩個人才玩得起來，這點認識相當重要。〈創世紀〉第三章的寓言裡提到，夏娃偷嚐禁果，發現它很好吃的那一刻，並沒有生出什麼羞恥心或罪惡感來。等到她拿給亞當，亞當也嚐過了後，「兩人」才一起感到羞愧。換句話說，在夏娃與天父的關係中，天父並沒有對夏娃下任何評判。這是個很重要的觀念。當時並沒有「二物」存在，「聯手」違背天父。那個時候只有天父與夏娃存在，也就是只有天父與祂「自性」的表露（Self-expression）。

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Guilt is an impossible experience in one's relation with the Father, even if one seems to be acting independent of the Father.  You see, at this point a joining in the act of disobedience had not occurred, and therefore a joining in agreed-upon disobedience had not occurred.  The only relationship existing, still, was that of the Father and His Self-expression, which was still pure.  No joining in delusion had occurred because the Father cannot relate to his Self-expression in a deluded manner.  Just as there is no guilt in the presence of the Father, there also is no experience of shame.  And this is why, as one approaches the Father, no matter how far off track that one seems to have gotten, there is an absolving of guilt and shame.

聖子在與天父的關係中，是不可能經驗到罪惡的，即便他好似做出了與天父分立的舉動。你瞧，在此節骨眼上這個違逆行為尚未聯盟，也就是說，沒有人在一旁「認同」他的這個行為。唯一存在的，只有天父與祂自性表露（Self-expression）之間的關係，它依然純潔如昔。那個妄境還沒有產生同盟，因為天父無法與自己建立一個虛妄的關係。天父的臨在裡不可能有罪咎，因此也不會有羞恥心這一回事。這正是為什麼說，不論我們的行徑有多離譜，只要一接近天父，所有的罪咎與羞愧都能得到赦免。 ~~~~~

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I will tell you something: It is only the sense of ego joined with another sense of ego in which the experience of shame or guilt occurs and seems to be real.  Only when Adam partook of the apple—which really meant when he agreed with Eve to act at odds with the Father's Will—did the experience of shame and guilt and the call for forgiveness come into play.

告訴你吧，唯有當一個小我存在感與另一個小我存在感「聯盟」以後，才會產生羞愧與罪咎，才會把這些東西搞得跟真的一樣。只有在亞當一同吃了那顆蘋果後（這個象徵所要表達的是：他同意和夏娃一起違抗天父的旨意），才會經驗到羞恥心與罪惡感，這時才需要「寬恕」登場來化解。

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It is not the Father Who blames.  It is not the Father Who holds you or anyone else in a state of loss of grace.  It is not the Father Who hands down a judgment.  It is not the Father who exacts penalty.  What does this mean, then?  It means that egos join together in creating the definition and judgment of shame and guilt which holds everyone guilty.  It is the joining of egos which results in the exaction of a penalty to be paid before one's Birthright and the Kingdom of Heaven can be experienced again.

責備你的，不是天父。也不是天父害你陷於「失去恩寵」之境的。定你罪的，不是天父。要懲罰你的，也不是天父。這話是什麼意思？它要說的是，是那群串謀的「小我」賦予了羞恥心和罪惡感的意義，判斷定每個人都是有罪的。正是這個小我聯盟堅稱在你重獲天賦權利、重返天國之前，必須為你的每一個罪付出代價。

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Do you see why forgiveness is essential to Awakening, and why it is central to the Course?14  It is the withdrawal of judgment, by means of which you hold your fellow man in bondage to his separated sense of himself from the Father.  You see, men hold each other accountable.  It is suggested that you are held accountable for your good works, that you need to handle yourself in a way whereby you can account for yourself as worthwhile, and dependable, and meaningful, and contributive, et cetera.  But this is just a cover-up for the accountability for your sins, for the negative.  After all, if you can have enough gold stars in your portfolio, if you can have enough diplomas, if you can have enough credits, et cetera, then it is by means of this that you absolve yourself of the unstated, untalked-about accountability for your sins, for the mutually-agreed-upon shame which came into play by mutually agreeing to act at odds with the Will of the Father.

現在你知道，為何「寬恕」是覺醒的基本要素，又為何是《奇蹟課程》的核心了吧。它能撤銷你的評判，使你的弟兄不再因著你對他的評判而始終陷於他與天父分立的那個個體身份。你看到了嗎，每個人都要別人負起責任來。人們希望你為自己那「有意義」的工作負責，其中暗示著你有責任把自己變成更有價值、更可信靠的人，過著有意義、能奉獻的人生。然而，這不過是個煙幕彈而已，他們其實也要你為自己的罪咎與負面行為負責。畢竟，要是你成績優異，有足夠的文憑，又贏得不少信譽的話，你才抵銷得了你對自己的罪所應該負起的那些沒人敢提、也沒人想談的責任，以及你們相互認同的羞恥心。而這罪惡感與羞恥心正是來自你們當初約好一起違逆天父旨意的協定。

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So, it has become a worthy endeavor to handle yourself in a way which allows you to account for yourself with pride, rather than having to account for yourself with the feeling of guilt.  But, I will tell you something: It doesn't undo the fundamental accountability for guilt which was caused by, and continues to be maintained by, all attempts to be a good separated human being, instead of letting go of the mutual agreement with other egos to act as though there is not a God; to act as though, indeed, you are bastards, and that you are not the direct and only Self-expression of the Father.

於是，這成了值得你努力的目標：妥善打理自己，懷著自豪之心而非愧疚之情，來為自己負責。但，容我提醒你，這並「不能」化解你對罪咎的根本責任。這罪咎之所以陰魂不散，乃是因為你費盡心思想作個獨立自主的「好人」，你並沒有放掉你與其他小我的秘密協定，你們約好一起過著頭上三尺無神明的日子，活得像是個喪家之犬，絲毫不像天父唯一且直接的自我表露。

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Graduation, literally, is the process by which you do release that fundamental mutual agreement, and the shame, guilt, and associated penalties which are inherent in it.  Graduation is when you say, "Thy Will be done, not mine," and you never, ever again, rely upon your sense of capacity to have a will of your own.  You desire to know the Will of the Father and nothing else, which you do by means of Listening—as you are doing at this very moment as I speak.

因此，正確來說，「畢業」指的是「釋放」的過程，釋放那最根本的秘密協定，釋放羞愧與罪咎，以及與之形影相隨的懲罰。「畢業」表示，你已能夠說出「完成祢的旨意吧，而非我的意願」之刻，而且你從此不再信賴自己有能力作主的那種「感覺」。你唯一渴望獲知的只有天父的旨意，別無其他意願，而獲知的方法即是「聆聽天音」，就像你此刻在聽我說話一樣。 ~~~~

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Again, as you have found, this puts you in the middle of an experience which you cannot account for, and which others' demands for you to "account for" cannot be met.  You must understand the dynamics of this coercion to be held accountable—the coercion from your own conditioned thinking and the coercion of the conditioned thinking of those around you.  You must come back at least to the point in the Allegory of Eve having eaten the apple, having been disobedient, but not having joined in relationship yet with any one or anything other than the Father.  Even though she was, shall I say, exploring the act of disobedience, she was still held in the perfection of her inseparable Oneness with the Father, because there had been no joining with another, which was essential in order to establish a "real" sense of separation.  At this point Eve had not embraced and limited herself to the three-dimensional-only frame of reference.

我再說一次，你已發覺，自己正處於一個非你所能負責的境地，也無法滿足旁人要你「扛起責任」的需求。你必須了解「被迫扛起責任」這種心態背後的機制，你不只受迫於你的自我制約，同時還受制於旁人類似的制約想法。你必須至少回溯到夏娃偷嚐禁果的寓言那個關鍵點上，她那時雖違逆了天父，但尚未與天父之外的任何人或物結盟。這麼說吧，即便她真的做出了違逆天父之事，她仍活在與天父一體不分的完美之境。這是因為她尚未與別人結盟，而結盟乃是把分裂感弄假成真的要素。在這階段，夏娃尚未完全接受這個僅僅三度空間的思想架構，而自囚於牢籠中。

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Now, when you are relating to me alone, you are not relating to a person, a personality, a finite sense of self-hood.  You are, as I have said before, relating to That which is standing as the Door also, in full commitment.  And thus, you experience in me the Father's Will expressed.  So, you are, through me, in direct relationship with the Father.

你與我相通的此刻，你並非與一個個體，一種有限的自我感相通。我說過，你乃是與全心全意為你們佇立於此的那扇「門」相通。藉此，你在我內感受到天父旨意的展現。所以，你透過我直接與天父建立了關係。

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In your willingness to withdraw from mutual agreement with other egos, and to the degree that you are willing to make commitment to withdraw from your best sense of being a human being—a private mind—and join with me, you are joining with the Father, which moves you back into that point in the Allegory where Eve was only existing in relationship to the Father, but had acted at odds with His Will.  This brings you back into your innocence!  Her disobedience is not what made her guilty.  It was the joining in disobedience with another, other than the Father, which produced not only the illusion of shame and guilt, but the whole distorted experience of the Garden of Eden, the Kingdom of Heaven, and Who she really was as God-expressed.

當你願意撤回你與其他小我之間的秘密協定，當你愈是心甘情願地撤回做個擁有一顆隱私心靈的道地之人，而選擇與我結合，你便與天父合一了。這能將你領回〈創世紀〉的寓言那個關鍵點上，也就是夏娃與天父那唯一存在的關係上（即便當時夏娃已做出了違背天父旨意的舉動）。換句話說，這能領你回到你的「純潔本性」！她的違逆行為不足以定她的罪。是她與天父之外的另一人「聯手」違逆天父的這個舉動才讓她產生了羞愧與罪咎的幻覺，因而對伊甸園、天國以及自己的真實面目（即上主的表露）的感受與體驗也完全失真了。